Tea with Cyborgs

 A few days without writing. I need a faster process.  At least I got the christmas decorations done and relocated the furniture again, it gives me a sense of accomplishment at least.  Yoga classes are too expensive, maybe I need to do stuff at home, again, but get to it. That's where I'm stuck,  I need to be ready for the return to school of my kids, that's the focus today. Everything clean and ready.  Plus, two social commitments that I will fit in. Hope everything's good. 

  I need discipline. That's one thing I have to learn and adopt this year. I neee to be able to start and continue no matter what the things that I begin. I need to write it somewhere. I need to learn that it's the key for me to achieve what I want. I need to remember that I CAN.

I want to start a new good year for me. I want to feel that I can have control on my life, that I can change the direction and that I can produce results for myself, as I did years ago. These last few months I'm feeling powerless, overshadowed by my husband who's returned to feeling great with himself, and I'm glad for him, but it only shows that he wanted a change and he made it. I want to feel that sense of accomplishment in my life too, and I know that I can do it. And I'm not just talking about loosing weight, but the overall health that comes when you exercise and move your body and feel light and energized, I want to feel that again. I've been feeling tired and exhausted for the last three years, I'm done. I'm ready to finish a year where I'm proud of myself, I need it. I am going to find options for doing an activity for me, near home. If not, I'm doing it at home.